As I sit here in my warm cozy bed with my kids fast asleep, I’m reflecting on the word “thankful”… I’m taken back to the doctor’s office where my husband and I were anxiously awaiting the first sight of our first baby on a sonogram screen.
I could hardly contain my excitement at the thought of being a mommy and then the gasp from my doctor startled me out of my daydream. “
What’s wrong, is everything okay with the baby?” She replied, “Oh yes, everything is fine with the BABIES… you have twins!!!”
At that moment, my world changed.
Over the next few months, my body and perspective changed. My belly was stretching, making room for something that I didn’t feel prepared for. My comfortable life and routine was being stretched to make room for these two new precious lives.
Over the next few years, my heart, nerves, will, character, and even my own sanity felt like it was stretched to capacity…much like my stomach had been! I felt that I had been stretched so much that I could pop at any moment! I had thoughts like “I can’t do this!” and “I’m not good at this mommy thing”. I should be more thankful for this season of my life, but why can’t I get a hold on this?
Why do I feel so completely unqualified for this?
One day, after having a very transparent conversation with a lady that speaks into my life, I made a decision to allow the challenge to build my character. God gave me these boys and He said that I was enough! There were many imperfect days, but each day seemed to get better. I found joy in doing what God created me to do. Now when I look back, I am thankful I didn’t shy away. I embraced the challenge of growth.
I realized that stretching equals growth and God was using this experience to enlarge me on the inside.
The truth was, I could not do it by myself. I needed Him. I needed His grace daily (and still do). God had an amazing plan of a double blessing for my life. I’m thankful that I was able to go through a season I didn’t feel prepared for.
What challenge has God brought into your life that is designed to take you to the next level in Him? What is it in your life that brings thoughts of “This is too big!” or “I just can’t do this!”?
In Numbers 13:30, Caleb had to encourage the Israelites by saying “Let us go up at once and possess it; we are well able to conquer it.”
I want to encourage you to be thankful for the challenge or season that may be stretching you. Embrace it, because the truth is that you are “well able”! Face the challenge head on and allow it to enlarge you on the inside. You will look back and be amazed at what God has done in you!
Be thankful for the challenge or season that may be stretching you.
About the Author:
Raised in Baton Rouge, Louisiana, Courtney McKay attended Louisiana Tech University, where she earned a degree in interior design in 2004. While interning in Manhattan, she met her future husband, Jason. She then moved to Dallas, Texas, to work in the design industry and eventually married Jason. In 2008, sensing a call to ministry, Courtney decided to leave the design industry and serve with Jason as a youth pastor. After five years as youth pastors, Courtney and Jason became associate pastors at their church. Then, in 2014, God spoke to them about planting a life-giving church. So, in February 2015, Courtney and Jason launched Lights Church in Fort Worth, Texas. They are excited to see what God will do!